psychedelic

khacey87 @ 2010-01-01T02:51:00

2010-01-01T10:52:06Z

i am currently looking for my old new years resolution that I posted here way back. I WILL UPDATE IT! so much has changed! yay❤

2010 is my YR. ❤

pers gear

2009-04-28T00:16:19Z

last satuday was nba playoffs game four and of course, what joy. the lakers won vs. utah jazz. oh wee. 100+ something to 80 to 90. basta tambak. gasul and kobe ay umariba. it was a nice game. sorry i am so inaccurate with the exact scores because we were baking a chiffon cake while watching the game. what bliss!! :)

put it in purse!! oh oh i don't have a purse. hahaha!!

corni-ness is next to whatever...

2009-04-25T23:30:11Z

carpet to floor -ive got you covered. hehe
stamp to envelope -stick with me baby and we'll go places

CORNY!! HAHAHAHA =))

-E. HAHA

NBA Game 4 later. yehey. :)

game 3

2009-04-24T05:56:59Z

game 3/7 and utah jazz won. i go for lakers. it was a tight game and scores were 88 (jazz) to 86 (lakers). kobe tried shooting a 3 point shot and our cheer was unison, ayuuuunn!!!! matched with a shooting pose but his shot didn't make it by the last 3 seconds. last shot by williams and of course umariba si boozer of jazz. hot good game though. looking forward for game 4. yahoo.

my cousin said that adam lambert is gay. according to my cousin, his "partner" attended/ appeared on camera during one of his performance. it figures. with the weird sexy body move and seductive eye look. he is gay??? but still i find it hard to believe. :(

laziness

2009-03-26T14:53:27Z

Mouse to Garfield: If I were the last mouse on earth would you eat me?
Garfield: Not a chance... I'd force you to cook for me..

HAHAHA.

Garfield somehow reminds of myself. HAHA How? im getting fatter
everyday because for the past few weeks because i've been too lazy to exercise. YAY!! well, complaining will not help me lose weight. I will do something about it everyday. =)

Bitterness also does not get me to where I wanted to be. Better move on. I am moving on. =)

i want to kill you

2009-03-20T00:01:21Z

I AM SO ANGRY. Its as if my hatred is going to swallow me whole. ARGH. I hate you! Leave me alone!!!!!!!!!

drawbacks

2009-03-05T07:48:20Z

of reviewing continuously..
YOU:

live a sedentary life. most of your precious time is allocated to studying. aral. kain.aral.kain.tulog.tulog. aral. kain.
gain weight (most annoying part) - - your arms/shoulders get soggy, face swells, bilbil too hehe.
get a lot of pimples
exercise less
you tend to eat a lot. brain food daw.
most of all, you miss hanging out a lot with your friends.

but, if you think of the perks, ok na rin. :))

HAHA

2009-02-19T05:42:19Z

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paranoid

2009-02-12T13:25:35Z

I've been physically, mentally and emotionally drained for weeks. now that I'm stressed but i guess I've succumbed myself too deep into fret about a matter i am unsure of. do you know where this is heading? yes, my soon to be nclex result. again, paranoia overwhelms my whole body. waah! my letter- may you be small and may you bring good news because i might or won't be able to endure additional pressure. at the moment, i don't know where i stand. really really.

khacey87 @ 2007-08-15T22:41:00

2007-08-15T14:48:54Z

my journal, my bestfriend
where i unburden my heart's sentiments
where my little world lies..
ran out of page
in middle of my streaming sensitivities. huhu

khacey87 @ 2007-06-11T20:42:00

2007-06-11T12:40:47Z

i am:
-confused
-chillin
-worried
-happy
-contented
-weird
-in deep beautiful melancholy.

khacey87 @ 2007-04-10T20:04:00

2007-04-10T12:14:18Z

this would be very quick.
white beach puerto galera with my family and nona (my bestfriend) was fun fun fun!

i should be posting a picture here. gawd. there's something wrong with photobucket. boo!

anyhooooow,

the henna, banana boating, snorkeling was the greatest!
the people, sun bathing, dancing under water, sand figure making,
the blue gigantic starfish! hottie guys(haha), night parties, our night walks,
the jellyfish i repeatedly cursed, fishes we fed, the nauseated wave like feeling after immersing
oneself for so long in water, the coral cave, the experience..

i'll treasure.

what the?! haha

Listen to them. Children of the karen. What music they make.

Which movie was this quote from?

khacey87 @ 2007-03-28T23:53:00

2007-03-28T15:49:05Z

i'm unwary-ingly making another step in college. for starters, i feel so thoughtless as if lost in the hasty time of my studies. i am still unexperienced and sad to say unsure of what to do when faced with an emergent situation. two weeks from now, i'll be taking summer classes, undergo demos and return demos on different procedures I'm certain I will fail to remember at times when all i can count on is my brain. *rant rant rant* take all those unending quizzes. oh crap. and i'm relating all this as if there's no life to what im saying.

still, why do i feel so optimistic?

I'm stuck the middle of nothingness. by this time i believe that i should love or even start loving what i'm doing yet though (i feel) so envious of those who go on duty with ecstatic hearts and enjoying more than 480 hours standing and catering to the needs of others, why i feel like nothing in regards to this crucial matter?

with this malady, why so hopeful?

one moment i feel like i love you suddenly i feel like i don't care anymore.
why do i hurt those who love me much?

and why do i feel like i still want to continue loving?

I've dyed my hair (si chestnut, because of the color) and decided to make it so short. i had a chinese or japanese or whatever they call it these days guy hair cut.

and i'm lovin it.

i haven't read any good books so far. haven't played guitar for months. haven't replaced all my lost mp3s from sammy's (my pc) reformatting. *criiieess*

with all this, why do i feel so joyful?

i need to

grow up.

change for the better
love more
expect less
be patient
always smile
study harder
party
save money

prolly because.

seven more minutes. and and and.

happy birthday me! :D

khacey87 @ 2007-02-06T18:49:00

2007-02-06T11:00:14Z

for no reason its so queer when all the eagerness that you suddenly felt abruptly disappears just a few seconds that you've sense your enthusiasm to do something. HAHA!

i'm just so thankful for my beloved friends, nona and aizee.
thanks for every little thing we've shared. *ohhh drama*
magroroad trip tayo some day!

khacey87 @ 2007-01-29T21:59:00

2007-01-29T14:26:48Z

talking to myself: what do you have to do when you get a grade of 74 in your midterm exams in one of your major subjects?
well, i guess grieve a little, think what went wrong and then move on. it's not the end of the world.

you don't have to succumb to all the senseless possible numerous factors that could have contributed to your stupid marks because you'll just end up having a bad headache.

there's always a second chance to prove yourself especially at this cases.

well, this just happened to me today. i've got no one to blame but myself. boohoo.
so much of this. anyhow, i've been preoccuppied with lots of "to-do's" from school. boo!
and i still got more things to accomplish and give much of my attention to.

hmm. happy birthday to paula limbo, micky, and belated to ace lopez.. =)

reshponshibilitiiiiiieeeehiiiees

2006-12-23T09:10:54Z

yep, im currently doused with the corrupt flaccidness of my boredom. i overslept. woke up and ate my lunch (*haha) and then went back to my deep slumber. ohh gawwd. is this the effects of having the grateful chance of doing nothing? or is it just that i feel too lame to even move a muscle? two weeks has just been given for our break and in between those free days, most of us have to work for the irksome (*haha) school responsibilities which has been left to us. would you believe that?! (*haha) im complaining again. boooo.

don't you just hateee:
#1 miss little pretentious social butterfly like.. wanting you to be one of her friends for some flimsy reason.
#2 errr. a cheesy guy. a pain in the head. who did nothing but to perplex your oh so quiet life.
~~well, who am i to judge them.~~

i want to see the world. =>
i can't feel that christmas is coming.
anyhow, happy christmas y'all!

khacey87 @ 2006-12-09T23:36:00

2006-12-09T15:36:02Z

I am such a monster.
This day:
I went on duty without sleeping
I air headed -ly answered all instructors queries about my patient’s meds
I was always spotted seating in the pantry rubbing my aching feet
I am currently feeling the distressing consequences of not sleeping. boo!
I am at the moment missing my dear friends
I am presently formulating what gifts to give to my beloved family and to my peers
Yahoo. 11 days more for xmas break and 16 days left til xmas. :))

p.s. nona, in case you're reading this, booo!. hahaha i don't make sense. hahahha

khacey87 @ 2006-10-15T09:17:00

2006-10-15T01:15:12Z

let me just say that:

i feel soooo happy.
my heart's beating hard and fast with bliss.
i feel so energetic.
i love my friends nona&hearts;aizee&hearts; and many ~~many more~~ good people i know whom i care for as well.
life's sooooooo beautiful and tough.
i feel nuts. ohhhh.

waaaaaaaaah. HAHAHHA XD

khacey87 @ 2006-09-10T11:08:00

2006-09-10T03:34:49Z

the wickerman.
so, two weeks ago when my friends and i watched the devil wears prada (which was reeeeally goood) :)), we saw the trailer of the wickerman and other movie clips. i told them, it seems nice and they agreed naman. from then, natatak sa isip ko that i really wanted to see the movie.

so, yun nga. yesterday, napanood nga namin. shet. sayang ang 100 pesos. it was not good at all. the movie was so weird and it ended up so bad with nicholas cage dying. this tribe of women, fanaticts and feminist goes to the city yearly for a prey, looks the right guy, get themselves pregnant and then leaves the man not knowing he has a child... (back to the lady) writes to the poor man and says that they have a daughter who is missing and (according to her) was stolen (but doesn't say who kaya sobrang malabo).. so the man goes to this isolated island from nowhere that's so rich in bees.. (bees, that the man is allergic to).. gets dazzled from the undending plans of the tribe.. then finally saw his child, punches and kicks girls (hahah, really funny) and then finally ending up realizing that with all the baffling situations, he (nicholas cage) was the sacrifice(burned by his own family) for the goddess of good harvest. crap.

i still can't forget the line (by nicholas cage), "awww. my leg.!" which sounded so hilarious. basta, we ended up laughing.

and so if you opened this.. stroll down fastly so you can't see. hahhaa or just pretend you don't see any entry at the upper part of this page.. hahhah :))

1.3 megapizel lang. boo. =>

then, we (iesa, aizee, maica, kuhol, melai, glai, honea, Kc, paula, phitz, liv) ate at chef d angelo's. went back to iesa's place by past 9. nagkulitan. watched some series of season one of grey's anatomy (is ♥), ate again, kantahan, kulitan, catched up and all that stuff. some of us dooze off to sleep dahil sa pagod then others slept really late (isa na si aizee kulit dun sympre).

now we're pagod. but then iamohso hohohohappy. :))

whatever

2006-08-29T15:00:49Z

i am at the moment:
physically tired
slightly thrilled
a bit confused
semi confident
on what i did with my case study
and badly wanted a good sleep.

i was like standing up for almost seven hours straight sa duty. ang sakit sakit talaga ng paa ko.
throbbing talaga yung pain. during our lunch, hindi na ako kumain. i just sat and spent my time resting in the pantry.
ang daming charting. oh yeah, it was my first time to prepare and administer meds to the patient. at first i thought it was hard.. nakakakaba lang pala kasi you are accountable and responsible kung ano man ang mangyari sa patient.

i got home late. dami ginawa. masakit pa rin ang paa. sobra. tambak na paper works ang dapat gawin for the case.
after four stiff working days with these matter, natapos ko rin. well, i still have to fill two remaining forms and yet i'm not so certain of the outcome of what i did. ang sakit sa ulo. its really a lot. HAHA! i bet marami na naman ang nagcracram (like me) haha!. wala, pasimpleng nagrereklamo lang ako. a little update.

duty pa tomorrow at the ward. yeah, the ward. my start at this rotation was a little traumatic (long story..) but then feeling ko in the future, i'll prolly work here kasi ang lawak ng scope/learnings/skills if you're at the floors.

i'm not performing so well with my lecture class. oh well. anyhow, so much about the school.

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY YENG YENG YENG!

got to go. i'll better sleep. sleep. sleeeeeeeep.
yeah yeah yeaahs, the icon.. we have the same haircut. but mine's a little longer. i had my hair cut ng 3 inches. HAHAHA! i look like a boy+girl=BOYGIRL!=P (labo!)

khacey87 @ 2006-08-13T00:18:00

2006-08-12T16:15:44Z

some things doesn't matter to me anymore.. like going to school with a messy hair, like having pimples on my forehead (haha), like having not so good marks in school, like whatever that is that will come about in the day of my life. everyday.

last wed was our ward class and the final day of our duty in the nursery department at makati med. haiii.
i'll surely miss the place, the work and the egocentric babies. the way they shiver when they feel cold, their peircing cry when they're asking for food, their little hands and feet, reflexes, chinky eyes, how they turn cyanotic .. oooh babies. ilab'yal. feeling ko, i wanna be a pedia, if i can still handle it. i'll be working at the floors this coming week. waah. like my first exposure at the hospital, it will be similar to working at the ardous ward but harder. we'll be giving meds already. additional work. additional knowledge. we're now having case studies, in short.. less sleep. more work. more learnings.

i'm basically trying hard to look at the brighter side of things.

if you are currently reading this, maraming salamat because im sure that if you are not a nsg stud. you'll not be able to undertsand where i'm getting at so i'll better stop.

then came my boring thrusday and they finally, friday. it was the only time i was able to go out with my soooper friends. haha :)) nonoy, aizee at ako. we watched the any bully.. wala. it was not good but then natawa na lang kami sa mga insekto dun. gaad. we missed each other so much. i was separated from them kasi because of the reshuffling. then the sad story goes.

here we are. i love us so much. :))

don't cry over split gatas

2006-07-28T15:37:06Z

i feel so exhausted. there's so many things to do.. in less time.
i still have classes tomorrow and here i am cramming for lots of stuff for
the never ending, at times infuriating quizes kasi i haven't started anything. argh.
earlier this day, 2/4 pa lang of our subjects, i felt like sagging in my seat kasi feeling ko napupuno na ako ng kung anu-ano.
gawd, aizee! nonoy! i soo miss you guys. hindi na ako makasama sa inyo palagi. namimiss ko na lakaran natin! waah :(

anyhow, i have nothing much to say. sobrang namiss ko lang ito. yung ganito.
hahahha! look at this..

so nonsensical.

pero natawa ako. hahahha :))

khacey87 @ 2006-07-20T22:52:00

2006-07-20T15:50:29Z

grrrr. its bad that im starting to feel that i can't afford to spare some time for the other stuff that i wanted to do.
i seriously am not able to practice or do anything with my guitar. lecchee. the only exercise that i am able to do
is to climb the first to fifth floor hospital stairs on my way to my duty and some other languid few lmovements i tend to make when i feel like i've got to. haha:))
hindi na ako makapagonline ng matino. i only go when i need to or when i feel like i've got to but in a hasty manner pa.
i lack sleep. i only sleep for about 3-5 hrs lang. asar pa ang morning call time. ohh i hate morning classes and duties.
i get home craving for sleep. . wake up then study. i sleep inside the car going to and waiting for the next class. haay.
i frequently end up eating fast food products most of the time. i haven't been able to blog for ages.
ang dami nang nangyari marami na rin akong nalimutan. i guess, its really like these.
when you aim for something beneficial and good, maraming gagawin at dapat gawin. haha :))

anyhow, my kuya's older friends were board passers. ang saya. i hope we'll pass din when we'll have our turn.
i waannnaa pass two years from now. :)) i should... :))
i'm currently enjoying my duty though a little irated by the time at the nursery of makati med.. waah.
there are so many babies to care for. i called my first patient "superstar" kasi ang V.I.P ng baby boy.
son of doctor kasi. the hell. good thing i was wearing a mask (as part of our uniform) if not, halatang kabado ako. i was so scared to perform something errounous in any part of what i was doing fortunately i managed. :)) waah. i feel so attached to the babies there. they're so innocent, selfish and unique. i love them all.
well, i have three more long weeks to go. yeah yeah, capping tomorrow. it's a bit delayed and i'm not so happy about it kasi we'll have sort-off a title na.
student nurses then after few years, RN na.. i hope. ♥♥♥

dawdling

2006-06-09T06:16:34Z

today, i felt like i have to savor myself with the nothingness i have in mind that is merely to dawdle around the house and be unproductive.
heck, after months of engulfing myself with all the facets of studying..
i felt like i have to have the benefit of making use of my remaining time unwisely (even for a single day)
before facing the dreadful and the unknown at school next week. hahaaha! i am exaggerating.

demmit, my plans for tomorrow won't be pursued because our driver went home. yeah, my parents definitely doesn't allow me to drive on my own without a company especially on long driving. so basically, there's no one who will drive me to yfc empowerment at bicutan and my free tickets to splash islands
with friends is just useless.
haaay.

for days i've been reading this nba book my dad gave to my brother. and since im not really a fan of basketball, i only managed to read few pages of the thick book and browsed thorugh its almost 700 sheets looking at the different styles, evolution and photographs of the players from atlanta hawks to washington wizards. how did the players managed to play with the classical converse high-cut rubber shoe? ang bigat kaya non. with the fitted outwit and little shorts they're wearing.. haha wala lang. XD

anyhow, ang sabi sa libro, "Basketball, on any level, is more than a game. It is a continuum. It is a legend..".. When an NBA legend like Russell, Chamberlain, Lary Bird, MJordan departs, another league arrives. and it works that way. the game endures. "Basketball is one legend setting the bar and another legend coming around to raise it." "the sport always has been about more than an individual stars. It has been a never-ending search for a better way to get a big ball through a small basket". "it is the simplest of sports - a ball, a basket and a single individual are it takes to get started yet the complexities can be maddening.." It is a big basketball world out there, a universe of thrills and drama that constatntly is expanding.." When the some of the basketball pioneers left, the basketball world did not spin out of the orbit. Only now can we realize how reislient, how remarkable and how relentlessly evolving this game can be." -ira winderman

i just wish i could say more but then again, i am not really a fan of nba or anything that has to do with basketball. i know little at natuwa lang talaga ako sa mga uunting nabasa ko. nakakainspire. i feel like i'm staring to love basketball. haha! :))

my longest entry

2006-06-05T14:06:18Z

yfc southbasetwo outing was such a BLAST! :)) though i had a couple of bruises because of the "kakaibang" activties that we made at sacramento valley camp in rizal from rappelling, "laro" sa pool, racing, hiking, spelanking at the "sugo" cave, water trecking to just simply immersing ourselves to the cool water of daranak waterfalls with my yfc soooper fun friends.

i never expected that this summer outing with SBtwo people would be so much fun because i felt that hindi ako masyado makakarelate to what's been happening with the group since i was so inactive the whole year but i was mistaken kasi when we started our day with the worship and activities, i realized na soooper welcome pa rin ako.

yes, i admit that i was shy at mga nilalapitan ko lang ng mga miyembro ng grupo ay ang mga kakilala ko at ang mga pinakikilala lang sa akin. when the van (steff's van) got to sacramento valley (finally, kasi sobrang layo talaga ng lugar) and when we unloaded our stuff to the barracks at nakapagpahinga, we started to sort-off worship and sing hale songs na halos lahat sa akin ay bago but then again though hindi ko mabuka ang mga bibig ko dahil hindi ko alam yung lyrics ng mga kanta, i tried to internalize those meaningful words that i hear. i felt so close to God. i felt so peaceful. :))

day one. hinding hindi ko malilimutan ang waaaalang tigil na..

Betty died last night. Did sheeee die? NO! (hindi emvin)

sobrang mabenta. nung una ang labo talaga pero astig nagets rin ng karamihan. :))

sinabayan ng malakas na ulan ang hiking namin to the camp. naghalo halo ang mga reaksyon ng mga tao. may mga ayaw mabasa, may mga tuwang-tuwa sa pagpapaulan but then again to make the long story short, sumugod kami lahat sa ulan at natuloy mag rappelling. sa sight and height pa lang ng tatalunan with the rope around and in between your legs, nakakatok na ang dating but then since i never tried it before and though i was half convinced that i won't do it dahil sa baka madulas, i just found myself climbing the stairs to do it. masaya naman pala. you won't feel that you are working your way down from a very high place. sumunod naman ang paggapang sa kaditing putik, maruming tubig at pagpatawid na tulay na lubid. hindi talaga ako makapaniwala na nakayanan at nalagpasan ko iyon. whhatta experience that was. pagbalik sa barracks, we had our "pool" competion, at ang grupo namin which was called "the champs" or "team-ba" or "a-team" (tunog itim) HAHA! pauso ni emman.. ang unang natanggal. ok na iyon dahil sa sobrang gulo, sobrang excited, labis na pagiisip ng taktik upang manalo.. wala pang signal to go.. galaw na halos lahat ng grupo lalo na yung amin. :))

we were all so tired and the weather was quite cold. after dinner, we had our talk, group presentations and kahit marami nang inaantok, the "sardines" game was still pursued pero ako yung isa sa mga tao na hindi na sumali dahil antok na antok na ako but then, nagkwntuhan lang kami and to my surprise marami nagshare sa akin ng mga kwentos til 3am (oh girls, oh guys sobrang TUBE- The Ultimate Bonding Experiece ang nangyari sa atin) :))

day two began with the long walk to the church. hindi man lamang namin nasimulan at tagaktak ang aming mga pawis sa sobrang init. sa pagbalik sa main camp site, lahat kami pagod. lahat kami ng mga nakasabay ko ginamit ang pichure picture time bilang isang form to cathc up our breath. masaya kahit na pagewang gewang na ang lakad ko sa sobrang pagod. :))

siksikan sa car pero masaya talaga kahit tatlong kanta lang na paulit-ulit ang pinatutugtog na sinasabayan ng sayaw. :))

spelanking naman sa "sugo cave" bakit sugo? kasi we forgot the name of the cave and iyon ang cave na palaging pinakikita sa SUGO-ng palabas sa channel seven according to emvin. so be it. it was a great experience. though it was my second time to do so, mas challenging ang "sugo" cave kasi sobrang sikip, lalim at dilim. iilang kandila lang ang damit namin. at sa paglabas sa kweba, the whole group decided to go to daranak falls to have a swim. long walk uli. water trecking naman. :)) when we got to the falls, ang saya. kakaiba.

click the photo, to view the other pictures :))

and if you ask me, I thank God for blessing me and my friends to experience all this.

im sure lahat kami felt so happy. maraming NFFs.
maraming realizations. maraming bagong experience. maraming memories. :))